Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Just a moment...

Well...
I come to this blog every once in a while... Feeling guilty for not updating. Really WANTING to... but just not into updating EVERYTHING from 2011...
Wow...

But I come here tonight just to type. It has nothing to do with our family happenings, or parties, or holidays, or funny kid moments...

I'm here to let it out.

I. Feel. Like. Poo.

That's right... Poo... I guess its not a very strong word, but it's all I can think of right now.

I having one of those times where the adversary really got a grip on me and has made me feel like I am nothing. Like I suck as a mother. I'm too tired to do anything fun anymore. What happened to that mommy who used to plan a fun activity for the week and a craft, story, etc to go with it... She's definitely not here. I feel like I suck as a friend. And a wife. My house is a disaster. My body doesn't feel right. And the rest of it... well... that's where the Poo comes in. I just don't feel good... I want to run out the door screaming and crying.

This is NOT a "pitty party post". It's not a post where I'm searching for comments... in fact it's quite the opposite. I don't want to really talk to anybody and be a downer in somebody's life. I guess that's why I turned here. I don't really have to "talk" and be a burden... and I can just pretend that nobody reads this... right?

I know everyone has these days... weeks... whatever. It's normal I guess. I just have to keep remembering that it is... and that for where I am in my life right now and with certain things that are happening... this is sort of expected I guess...

It will get better. I won't feel like this forever. Just have to remember to be happy... :)

On a different note, my amazing visiting teacher just "stopped by" tonight with dinner. Because she was that in tune. How awesome is that? No reason. Just because. I really am surrounded by amazing people and friends and family. I have a good life. And I'm thankful...

I'm just ready for the "poo" feeling to be gone...

In due time I guess... :)

over and out...

13 comments:

RandiLynn said...

I heart you....The End

Jeff Corry said...
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Jeff Corry said...

Sorry I deleted my other post because of a typo. I love you honey. Blame the poo on the hormones. You are amazing and always have been.
You need to look and see what you have done and are doing despite feeling yucky. It doesn't last forever.

Unknown said...

Hi there, I happened to come across your blog and thought I'd say hello - and to say, don't fight the poo, let it ride out and take deep breaths.
Take a look at the positive things in your life and try to relax. The pooey feeling will sluff off eventually.
I've had several days in my past where I've felt like a horrible mother/sister/fiance/daughter/etc - listen to the people who love you and know that you will get through it.
All the best to you :)
--Emily

katie said...

Your great Jenna!! I hope you feel better soon!

Soper Family said...

Jenna - You are awesome! You're right; everyone has down times, but they don't last forever. Just take things one day at time and try to find joy in the small and simple things. Thinking of you! - Ashley

Judy said...

I feel like poo a lot too especially this last year! :) Different times in our life are harder than others. I'm sure you'll feel better soon but until then maybe we should have a poo pity party together.. :) I think you're amazing and wish I could be more like you.

Lynette Thibeau said...

I started to read your blog and thought "Hey wait a minute, I don't remember posting that." That's how similar it was to mine. I write little entries when I'm in the mood to communicate to "no one". I have only read a bit but will read more of your entries. If you have them. Read mine and you'll see what I mean.

Mikelle and Ben said...

I know how you feel! But I think you're amazing. You are one of those people who can do it all: you sing, you're crafty, you're creative, you're beautiful, and you serve everyone around you! I hope you get feeling like yourself again!:)

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